I can’t believe that it has been a month since I have written. The week after my last post, the baby got sick and had croup for 3 days. Several of the kids followed suit and I ended up exhausted. In spite of my commitment and dedication to living a healthier lifestyle, I gave up on my Whole30 challenge after the 2nd week, feeling as though I was fighting the right battle at the wrong time. I spent the last 2 weeks of January reorganizing, preparing for the upcoming semester of homeschool co-op classes for the kids and got their school to be done at home in order. I did my best to set my family up for success during the next couple of months.
After I finished reading my bible this morning and logging my thoughts into my journal chapter by chapter, I realized how far I have come this last couple of years. So often on this blogging journey, I have commented, “This has been a hard, hard year”. At one point, I thought you guys would get tired of me saying it because I said it so often! Reflecting on the last decade, I can see that LIFE IS HARD. DOING THE RIGHT THING is hard. LOVING YOUR HUSBAND AND CHILDREN is hard. LIVING A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE is hard. FORGIVING AND MOVING ON is hard. WORKING TO SUPPORT YOUR FAMILY is hard. EVERY DAY is hard.
Friends, you are doing a great job. Whatever it is that God has put in your life is most likely going to be life-changing. Change is hard. We are going to make mistakes. We are going to choose the wrong path and have to correct, backtracking to the right one. We are going to unintentionally hurt those we love. We are going to put our feet in our mouths. We are going to accidentally say bad words (and intentionally say bad words). We are going to forget special days. We are going to get so caught up in getting things done that the day is over before we know it.
What you are missing is that the world is watching. We are inspired by you! We celebrate your successes with you. We cry with you when you fail. We pray for you when you struggle. We sit in awe of your tenacity, of your God-given ability to keep on fighting.
Because you are in the midst of fighting the battle, it’s easy to miss your own progress. Spend a few moments today reflecting on how far you have come. Stop pushing, fighting. Instead, rest. Reflect. Here is what I saw in myself:
- I eat better. I don’t eat much processed food and consume way less sugar than I used to. Awareness brings reduction!
- I am now aware of the mental and emotional craziness that too much caffeine and sugar causes and easily recognize it.
- I am healthier. Plexus supplements have brought about a dramatic change in how I feel. No more achy joints. No more fatigue. #priceless
- I am a better mom. I am spending more purposeful, focused time with my kids.
- I am a better person. I have spent the last 2 years specifically working on myself. I can see huge improvements in how I relate and respond to people.
- I actually keep my things on my desk. Yes, my desk is piled high, but the majority of it is not all over the house where I can’t find it any more.
- I am writing my lists in one spiral notebook, instead of on the back of envelopes, the margin of the kids’ schoolwork, or any scrap of paper that I can find right now, but can’t find later.
- Life doesn’t wear me down very often any more. When I begin to feel that way, I can usually pinpoint the cause (eating dairy or beans aka foods that don’t agree with me, too much caffeine, or too much sugar).
- I don’t need anyone except God. Not. Even. My. Husband. My husband is a precious blessing given to me by the Lord. I am thankful for him. (This is so important to recognize!!!)
What progress and positive changes are you seeing in yourself? Share with me! I love praying for you and rejoicing with you in your successes.
Much love, Darlene